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Opus #3 [see also: Opus #2 [see also: Opus #1]]

I'm sorry everyone. Yesterday at lunch I was excited to be finally weighing in again. I celebrated by going to a mongolian grill and piling every morsel of food I could in that tiny, palm-sized bowl (that shit cooks down you know). Also, to ensure I made weight, I polished off all of the "fun size" twix in candy dish at the front desk (by the way, fun size twix should be 6'x12" and not some spec of chocolate with a "cookie" the size of an advil. fun = huge . What kind of polygamist cult sonofabitch thinks fun is small?)

188.4 (-2.4) I'm wasting away.

I tried to ride my bike fast at Opus but I started breathing hard and my legs hurt.

Average speed of commute this morning: 14.5

Comments

Lunatic Biker said…
Pete, remember that 100 of those fun sized bars equals 1 full sized candy bar. I'd love to go to the Twix factory some time.
12:37 PM
GoBigGreen said…
what's the matter with riding one's bike 14.5 mph?
Signed, a cat 3.9 rider
4:48 PM
Pete said…
It's a bit faster than I expected. I must be getting in shape.
4:57 PM
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