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People, I'm back at it. I thought the internet was a dying fad but turns out it is more popular than ever.

I bought a house with my tenant-in-common. It needs a lot of updating, as in, painting everything so that it doesn't look like a little old lady lives there. In the first 48 hours of living there I completely stripped all the wallpaper in the master bedroom. That stuff was even on the ceiling.

I'm not going to be competing in any of the cycling competitions this weekend. The Snide's are having a little celebration. You'll find me by the desert table. My guys are going to Milwaukee for a twilight crit...have fun.

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Anonymous said…
WOW! A blog from p.jenius. I thought I'd never see one again.(which is why it was three weeks before I read it) Good times last weekend kicking the other golf team. Ya know if we actually played at golf at all , we'd really smoke 'em! Isn't being a home owner fun? There's always something that needs to be done. Catch ya later.

KB
8:45 PM
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